it's really been 2 years since I last updated my blog here haha
but I actually been updating my fictions and rp logs since last year. Then again, I'm becoming unproductive lately. Then I found myself reading my blog posts here, felt a bit nostalgia, so I decided to finally update my blog haha
Well. I guess I should just summarized what happened last year first, in 2018. I got myself joining Persona-based roleplay group in the early year. I was so happy that I got accepted along with my other two friends. It was really hype back then. I contributed so much, my own character plots and ideas and concepts. We even made ourselves an animated video for the next recruitment! We were so ecstatic and full of youth energy(?).
Other than that, I worked at my mom's pharmacy store for a while. I learned a bit about medicines and such, and experiencing....well, rather funny events with funny customers lmao. Especially when that one man asked to copy his letter. Of course I was like, "what".
Few months later, I got accepted as an English teacher in a certain popular international English course. It was unintentional, and it was because of my friend! She just gave my CV to her supervisor just like that without my notice. I didn't even expect that I was actually called immediately like, a day after that. I was.... really confused back then, and very anxious. I was really not sure of myself, didn't have enough self-confidence because I have zero experience in teaching. And I was kind of lost, because I still wanted to work on illustration or animation studio. I found myself asked my facebook friends what to decide about my job offer as a teacher. With their help and mom's, I managed to accept the offer and went through all the training I got. It was kind of harsh, and I got full one month training in Ramadan jdfhkjsdf but somehow I survived. Even though in the middle of it, I was...kind of broken. I cried to my mom lmao because I cannot stand it, I felt so pressured and highly anxious. It was hard time for me to accept it for working on something I didn't enjoy at first. My mom coaxed me to stay for three months at least, then I got to decide whether I want to leave or not.
Turned out I'm still here after a year haha. I'm beginning to enjoy myself in teaching English to children. I just proposed myself of becoming a full-time teacher there. And while waiting, I'm currently teaching in another academic course, which owned by my mom's friend, and....well. My ex-crush HAHA you know, that one from my elementary school haha. It seems that he's still conceited as ever. Oh well.
And this year I found myself another hype! Thanks to my friend lmao. I began reading MXTX novels since last month. I finished reading SVSSS and MDZS. I haven't started reading TGCF though, I'm still indulging myself in MDZS fandom hdsgfsf there are so many foods...........and I have to admit that I fully distracting myself from other things and indulge myself too much into it lol. I... begin to lost interest in the roleplay group. And also drawing. Sigh. Since I started to enjoy myself in teaching and hyping in fandoms, I began to lose interest and less productive in drawing. Though sometimes I draw doodles, but just that. I even barely finished a fully rendered illustration.
It's kind of frustrating, but it's ok I guess. As long as I'm enjoying myself in life, free from deadlines, no feeling pressured, I'm grateful for what I have for now. I have to enjoy and have fun as much as I can in this lifetime. Ever since I got into college, it's been fun years. Though not without pain and depression and anxiety...but that's in the past. And currently, I'm pretty much content with myself. Maybe I'll take another step when I'm ready. Ah yes, I will go to Japan next year with my brother. Hopefully it will be a fun trip!
Hm, I guess that's all for now. Pretty much sums up what happened since last year until now. Thanks for reading, to anyone who reads. Have a good day!